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Well, this pregnancy I am definitely not managing to avoid the morning sickness – it is there constantly, pretty much.

I suppose I’m still pretty lucky as so far it has not got anywhere near actually being sick, but it’s like having constant car sickness or something in the background all the time. Occasionally it gets a bit worse – like this evening, where I really felt awful for half an hour or so – and sometimes it’s not too bad and I forget about it. But it’s always there.

We have just come back from a lovely week at Center Parcs in Sherwood Forest, which i’ll probably blog about seperately. I’m still very much off the tea and coffee – in fact the thought of pretty much any hot drink, including hot chocolate or horlicks makes me feel quite ill. I’m back to a stage where I just can’t get too excited about the thought of any food – I have  a ‘big shop’ to do but can’t think of any meal ideas which seem remotely appetising. I ate some mini cheddars at Tony’s mum’s house this afternoon and they just tasted like salt! I’m also really thirsty all the time, but no matter how much I drink it doesn’t go away.

My hormones are all over the place too. Last Sunday, while we were getting ready to go to Center Parcs the following day, I went to the supermarket to buy some of the things we were going to take away with us for self catering. My timing was awful. I was in the supermarket for the 11am Remembrance Sunday two minute silence. (Usually we go to to a service, the only reason we didn’t this year was trying to get everything packed and ready for our holiday). Anyway, they announced over the tannoy that they were going to be doing the silences in ten minutes, and then proceeded to start playing really emotional songs like Mariah Carey “There’s a hero/if you look inside your soul….” Oh my god. By the time the fanfare came on for the silence I already knew. I was going to be a hormonal wreck. I tried to find a quiet aisle (settled on the nappy aisle and tried to fix my gaze on them for the two minutes) and just stood there with the tears rolling down my face. It was just awful. I didn’t have a tissue or anything on me. After the two minutes were up, I tried really hard to pull myself together again but couldn’t really think straight so just threw a few more things in the trolley, paid, and got out of there!

As soon as I got in the car, I called Tony and started sobbing… he must’ve wondered what the hell had happened!

I had a similar hormonal outburst about this stage in pregnancy last time – again in the supermarket! I was doing the shopping and Tony was washing my car. When I finished I got into the car park and couldn’t find Tony. I tried to ring him and couldn’t get an answer. I got really upset and panicky. I wheeled the trolley round the car park a few times, like a mad woman, all bleary eyed. I thought Tony had abandoned me and I was really cross and upset. What had actually happened was there was a queue to wash the cars, and he was still washing mine, with the phone inside it. Eventually I spotted him at the car wash, wheeled the trolley over and pretty much pushed the trolley into the car, shouting “where have you been?!?! I thought you’d gone without me!!!”

At that point in the last pregnancy, I vowed never to step in a supermarket ever again. Internet shopping all the way.

I think the same course of action would be wise this time round, too!

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Yesterday, when I dropped Lilly off at nursery, there was much excitement. Her nursery was celebrating its 2nd birthday. To mark this occasion, the local Local magazine was coming in to take photos of the children for their front page, and there was going to be a balloon release.

Naturally, I was very excited at the thought of my little girl being on the front of a magazine, especially as we missed out on this honour last year because we were at Center Parcs at the time of the photo.

But, the idea of a balloon release and a bunch of toddlers did concern me. As a friend of mine said when I told her: “What next? Give them all chinese burns?!” But never mind. Maybe it’d be ok.

Tony picks Lilly up from nursery and he hadn’t heard any news about how said balloon release went. So when I got home,  I asked Lilly how it had gone:

Me – Did you have a balloon today in nursery, Lilly?

Lilly – Yes!

Me – What colour was it?

Lilly – Number three

Me – No, what colour was it?

Lilly – Number three!

Me – Don’t you mean number 2? (it was the nursery’s second birthday)

Lilly – No! Number three!

Me – Ok. What colour was the number 3?

Lilly – Pink

Me – Oh, lovely. And did you let it go into the sky?

Lilly – Sky.

I checked with nursery this morning for more detail. They said Lilly cried and cried when the balloon went into the sky, in fact they said they had never seen her so upset.

I look forward to seeing the photos….

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Well, i am officially 8 months pregnant today, or, in more scientific terms, 35 weeks five days.

I finished work on Friday, so this is my second official day of being off work and I am loving it! Tony is home by late lunchtime because of his shifts, so i am not getting the chance to get too bored or lonely. I celebrated my first day off work with a couple of nice croissants whilst watching breakfast telly in my PJs… heaven!

Today I have put on a wash of baby whites, all the last sheets and blankets etc. I’ve also done my GBS home test, which i just need to post, and i’ve ordered my tens machine online. It will arrive three weeks before the due date, so we can have a practice.

We had our hopsital tour last week which wasn’t the best experience in the world. Didn’t help that the midwife who took us round was a bit odd. She didn’t really show us much or explain anything and the other people on the tour weren’t much help either. (She asked: “Do you all know about the pain relief on offer?” Answer from the group: “Yes.” End of subject. She asked: “Are you planning to have epidurals?” Answer from the group: “No.” End of subject.) Would have been good just to go over things anyway, for the less vocal in the group (i.e. me!). I mean, if these people know all the answers, what are they doing on the tour in the first place???

I was also downheartened to see the birthing pool (the only one in the unit) was basically a glorified bath in the disabled toilets! Although it has a door leading off one of the delivery suites, when it’s not in use by a person giving birth, it also has a door off the corridor and can be used as a toilet. I was in tears afterwards saying to Tony: “I don’t want my baby to be born in the toilet!” I know it’s probably a bit OTT and i’m not even sure what I think about waterbirth yet, but it just seemed so unlike how i would have imagined it… I thought the pool would be in the room where the bed etc was.

Oh yes, and the one piece of info that the midwife did give was that you can’t use the pool if you are “high risk” – which I am, but only because of medical history, not because of any complications with the birth. This really annoyed me as nobody has explained that there are implications like this to being high risk. What else does it mean that nobody has said? Last time i went to the consultant, he said everything was fine and there’s no reason for anything to be different from anyone else, but i’m still being seen as high risk and have to go back and see him again. Well, when i do i am going to ask about the birthing pool and what else there is that i “can’t” have because of being high risk.

Anyway, at least I have seen it now and i have a few weeks to come to terms with it! I definitely do not want to stay in there longer than i have to though. The ward was fine I suppose but it just reminded me of what it’s like to be in hospital and i’m definitely going to put in my birth plan that I want to be discharged as soon as possible.

I still haven’t packed my hospital bag yet, but i might get around to that tomorrow. I have a few things that i want to put in there that are in the wash at the moment. I also need to write my birth plan.

Me wise, I am feeling fine. A little bit slower than usual maybe and still get the occasional heartburn at night (Gaviscon works wonders though!). As the baby books and weekly emails told me, i can feel a few aches in my pelvis, which i’m taking as a good sign that things are happening as they should. And i’ve also noticed over the last few days that the baby is moving less, which i was starting to worry about until my babycentre.com email came through and said to expect that, as the baby now has less room to move. Once i had that reassurance, she seemed to start moving around again anyway… typical!

Right, best go, got a few things to do. Trying to make the most of these last few baby free weeks and make sure I am as organised as I’ll ever be.

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