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Well, we’ve had just over two weeks now for the news to sink in and we are feeling much more positive about the new little life that will (hopefully) be joining our gang.

There are still a million uncertainties about finances and the house – we live in a small two bedrom house that, in truth, we had grown out of when we had one baby, let alone three! We have gone through all possibilities – selling, renting, renting and selling, but the current housemarket is so uncertain and our finances mean that we’ve come back round to the idea that we’ll be staying put for a little while longer, even though the house will be busting at the seams! Similarly, adding up the potential cost of childcare is just a bit too frightening to do at the minute, and I think we are just putting our heads in the sand all these financial concerns on the back-burner while we settle into the idea of having three children!

And I think on that front, we are feeling a million times better. We’re both starting to feel that excitement which is so familiar from the last two pregnancies. That potential. We’ve talked about whether it’ll be a boy or a girl, and what names we like. We’ve had scary realisations that things like holidays, cars, days out and so on will cost a whole lot more with three kids rather than two. But we’ve also thought how lovely it will be for there to be three siblings, and how great it’ll be when our children aren’t babies anymore but little people – the idea of having a 6, 4, and 2 year old really appeals to me in a way that having a 4 year old, 2 year old and newborn baby does not!! Things will get easier when the youngest is no longer a baby. And I could not be more chuffed that we will have three children instead of two when we’re old people, to keep us company and provide us with lots of gorgeous grandchildren!!

And, we’ve already realised that all we’ll hear between now and the 20 week scan is: “I bet you hope its a boy”…

Anyway, we’re feeling much more relaxed with things now, and confident everything will be ok.

And tomorrow, we are going for an early scan to check all is going well – and to find out when this baby might be planning on making an appearance…

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Well, here we are at 40+6 and baby has not made her appearance yet!

Yesterday, Tony, Lilly and I went to Chester Zoo for a family outing. We thought we’d try some tempting of fate, and go as far away from the hospital as we dared! (However, as we now have the hospital bag and notes etc in the back of the car permanently, it wasn’t much of a risk I suppose!)

It was a scorching hot day, and the zoo, although busy, wasn’t too hectic. We’ve taken Lilly to the zoo about 5 times in her life so far, and each time she has been more and more enthusiastic (going from “very underwhelmed” on her first visit!!). We told her on Monday we were going to the zoo, so on Tuesday morning she was playing with her Noah’s Ark animals and telling us she wanted to see the elephants!

We did indeed see the elephants, and Lilly also enjoyed the monkeys – best of all though the chimps – we happened to be in their house when they were fed – basically the keeper throws barrels full of fruit and veg through a grill at the top – and it was brilliant watching them all getting really excited about their food and then scoffing it down… Lilly was fascinated! She also liked the giraffes but wasn’t so keen on the penguins this time – there is a viewing window where you can see them swimming underwater but I think she thought they were gigantic fish and found them a bit worrying!

Anyway, it was a very hot day and we did a fair bit of walking, which I wasn’t sure if i’d be up to but managed ok in the end.

On the way home from the zoo I started to be aware of these period pain type feelings coming every so often – not particularly close together and not particularly in any order. I didn’t say anything to Tony until later on that afternoon when we were sitting at home and I realised that these pains were still coming regularly – not hugely strongly and not very close together – but still with that contraction-like style of building up and fading slowly away.

Tony’s face was classic. “Oh my god”, he said. Then: “It’s the England game tomorrow”.

We started to make a note of how often they were coming. At first it was every 25 mins, then 30 mins, then 35. Then 10. Then 10 again. Then 8! Then 10 again. Some where definite contraction type feelings, some were less pronounced, leaving me unsure as to whether they “counted” or not.

We carried on timing them until the end of Big Brother at 11pm then we went to bed. It took me a little while to get to sleep, mainly because of my mind being too awake, rather than any pain or discomfort. Before we went to sleep I said to Tony that I thought I would more likely have a good night’s sleep and wake up tomorrow with no contractions at all…

… and that is exactly what happened!!

Today so far (it is 2pm) i’ve had a few aches and the occasional pain a little bit like last night, but not as strong. But the contractions have not started up again yet.

It could have been “false labour”, or it could be my body gearing up to do something more constructive soon. I hope it’s the latter. Last time, with Lilly, I had contractions at 10 mins apart all night, then dozed off about 6am and when I woke up they had gone. I had nothing all day and then the contractions suddenly came back, much more strongly, at 5pm that night. So hopefully the same will be true here!

Lilly’s at nursery today, so Tony and I have been for a nice lunch followed by a walk around the local area to see if that might kick-start things. If all else fails, I have a consultant appointment tomorrow morning which will include a sweep so hopefully that might get things started if they haven’t already.

And, as the England game kicks off in an hour, I’d say it’s a safe bet that Tony’s not going to miss it, after all!

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Well, 33 weeks gone now… we’re getting towards that home stretch very quickly now!

I cannot explain how quickly it has gone. Every cliche in the book is true – it has flown! In fact, I’m just gobsmacked as to how quickly i’ve reached this point. When I was pregnant with Lilly it felt like a lifetime – I was so impatient and thought of nothing else but being pregnant and my new baby. This time, I’ve already got one baby, and she takes up a lot of my time and my thoughts, and so the pregnancy has just carried on without me paying such close attention!

I am finishing work in two weeks!!!! And I cannot wait. I decided to bring it forward a week to the 14th, rather than the 21st. Tony, my mum and his mum all kept tempting me into an earlier finish, and I’ve been feeling fairly tired the last few weeks, especially with Lilly being a little bit ‘challenging’ in the sleeping department lately (more of that in a minute, no doubt). I think I always knew that finishing at 36 weeks might have been ambitious. In fact, I’d have been happy to finish work at about 30 weeks if I could have! I do feel heavy and big and slow and tired… but I know I’m very lucky as, aside from that, I’m feeling very good.

I haven’t got around to ringing the Supervisor of Midwives yet to make an appointment r.e. my VBAC. I must do that in the next few days as I don’t know how long it takes to get seen.

My birthing ball has arrived and I have had a few bounces! I’m trying to second guess which way up baby is. Some pregnant women seem so confident they know everything that’s going on on in there – they say they know whether it was an arm or a leg kicking them, for example. I’m afraid I’m not as knowledgeable as that!! I *think* baby might be head down judging by the kicks I’ve been feeling, but it’s really hard to tell. Going back to the midwife in a week’s time, so we’ll see what she thinks.

I’ve also started buying some of the baby bits and bobs. Most exciting of all, the pram! Have decided to go for a Mamas and Papas Sola, which is now ordered and we’re waiting for it to arrive in a few weeks time. Also bought some of the more boring baby bits – dummies, muslins, bottles, maternity pads, breast pads… all the glamourous stuff!

Meanwhile, Lilly’s sleeping is still up the wall. She wakes up at least once in the night. If we’re lucky, she settles back down with a few ssssshhhhes. If not, we have to sleep on a sofa bed on the landing. If we’re really unlucky, she has a screaming fit and won’t settle for ages. Last night was one of those nights. I am knackered! She is also having plenty of toddler tantrums during the day – especially when she’s tired and it’s coming towards bedtime. She had one of those yesterday, too. Huge screaming hysterics at bedtime. Took an hour and a half to get her quiet. Exhausting. Then she was awake at 5.50am. Grrrrrrrr. I’ve been left seriously wondering how the hell I’m going to manage toddler and baby bedtime at the same time on my own once Tony is back at work after the birth. It just doesn’t bear thinking about!!

Oh, and Lilly is back in her cot. The big girls bed just made the sleeping worse. And she could get out, which just added and extra element to the bedtime/nighttime battle. Now, as far as I’m concerned, she can stay in that cot as long as she needs to – even if it means buying another one for her sister!!

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Well, it’s been a little while since I updated this. I am now 27 weeks pregnant, and bump has grown quite a bit. I seem to remember last time there was a bit of a growth spurt from about 24 weeks on, and that has certainly been the case again this time.

This bubba is a very, very active one… she always seems to be awake and moving around! It’s not so much kicking, it’s more moving and wiggling that I feel, although plenty of kicks too! The Midwife told me at my last appointment that they don’t worry about the baby’s position until about 34 weeks, which is good as I don’t think our little bean has any intention of settling down just yet!

Aside from all the lovely movements (which I am trying to make the very most of, as feeling the baby move is so magical and something you ‘miss’ after they’re born) I am feeling good. I haven’t been excessively tired the last week or so, although I can definitely feel myself getting a bit ‘slower’.

I also bought a little outfit for the baby a few days ago – a very cute Peter Rabit outfit for 0-3 months. She won’t really need it, as we have tonnes of baby clothes from when Lilly was that age, but it was nice to treat her to something new, and to visualise her in it. We still haven’t bought much baby stuff, mainly just bottles, bottle warmer, and ordered some free sample reusable nappies. We need to dig out all our stuff and work out what we need to buy – hopefully not much. We have our eye on a Mamas and Papas Sola pram/pushchair, and I’d also like to buy a decent sling… need to do some research into that one, as we never had one with Lilly.

Lilly is doing fine, still seems excited about her “baby stister” and talks a lot about the baby in mummy’s tummy. And we have (hopefully) had a bit of a breakthrough with the Big Girl’s Bed – she has been sleeping in there for the last three nights!!! It wasn’t painless though, I won’t lie – I had to sleep on the floor with her the first night, and she still woke up three times crying. But she didn’t ask to go back in her cot, so it was a kind of result. Second and third nights, she woke up only once, not as upset as on the first night, and was relatively easy to settle back in her bed with a story and some reassurance – and didn’t need me to stay with her. Tonight is night four – so we will just wait and see!

On the potty front, Lilly is now happily sitting on the toilet at every nappy change… in nursery. We are still a bit slack with things at our end, but vowing to get better. She never actually goes to the toilet in nursery, but I’m sure that’s just a matter of time. Need to dig out the sticker incentives and get on with things at home, I think. Semi-cracking the Big Bed thing gives us a bit of a push too, i think. Our little girl is growing up!

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Well, I am now totally “out of the closet” at work, in the family and with friends, which feels good!

But just as I thought the morning sickness was fading a little it seems to have reared its head again – I felt terrible all day yesterday. However, I’m starting to think it might have been connected to not drinking enough water… I usually drink water all day at work but didn’t have much to drink yesterday, and today, as I started feeling a bit peculiar again, I started drinking and it seems to have kept it at bay. So, maybe I have a bit of a strategy from now on!

It’s also worth reporting that I had my swine flu jab last week - at 13 weeks pregnant. The jab itself was fine - my arm ached like crazy that night though and if I wasn’t pregnant I would definitely have been reaching for the pain killers! It’s still a bit sore a few days later, but nothing too bad. I feel glad that I’ve had the jab now as I’m protected and don’t have to worry when I hear horror stories about women dying in labour or after having emergency sections.

Aside from that, there’s not much new to report, suppose I am just getting impatient to start feeling kicks now… although it will likely still be a few weeks yet. I have my 20 week scan at the end of January, and I think with the excitement of Christmas and Lilly’s second birthday that is going to arrive so quickly… and then I’ll be half way through the pregnancy!!!! Quite scary really, and I think time is just going to fly by…

I have an appointment with the consultant in between Christmas and New Year where hopefully we’ll be able to discuss the birth – both Lilly’s and the one I want this time. To be honest, I have a bit of a fear about this birth – and a bit of a realisation this morning that this might get worse as time goes on. I suppose the crux of the matter is I really, really want a VBAC. But I’m so scared that I won’t be able to do it – that when it comes to the crunch I won’t have the determination or resolve to birth naturally, that they’ll offer me an “easy way out” and I’ll take it. Do I really want it as much as I think I do? Can I be strong enough? Can I cope with the pain and the pushing and everything? Will i get the support I need or will I be unlucky and end up with a horrible midwife who isn’t encouraging and doesn’t help me?

And on the practical side – will they want me strapped down on a monitor, unable to move around and help things along naturally? Will they start messing with me too early on then put me on this stupid “time restriction” by which I must’ve reached a certain dilation or they threaten me with more intervention or surgery?

This time the birth feels like such an uncertainty – something that I perhaps have little or no control over. If the baby is breach, they’ll be telling me to have an elective section. If the baby is overdue, likewise.

I haven’t thought all that much about the birth yet, but as you can see, when I do, I feel a bit overwhelmed with worries. It wasn’t like this with Lilly at all – I just trusted that all would be fine, and it never crossed my mind that I’d have a section, let alone under a general anaesthetic. I really don’t want that again – I just want to be normal!

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Well, this pregnancy I am definitely not managing to avoid the morning sickness – it is there constantly, pretty much.

I suppose I’m still pretty lucky as so far it has not got anywhere near actually being sick, but it’s like having constant car sickness or something in the background all the time. Occasionally it gets a bit worse – like this evening, where I really felt awful for half an hour or so – and sometimes it’s not too bad and I forget about it. But it’s always there.

We have just come back from a lovely week at Center Parcs in Sherwood Forest, which i’ll probably blog about seperately. I’m still very much off the tea and coffee – in fact the thought of pretty much any hot drink, including hot chocolate or horlicks makes me feel quite ill. I’m back to a stage where I just can’t get too excited about the thought of any food – I have  a ‘big shop’ to do but can’t think of any meal ideas which seem remotely appetising. I ate some mini cheddars at Tony’s mum’s house this afternoon and they just tasted like salt! I’m also really thirsty all the time, but no matter how much I drink it doesn’t go away.

My hormones are all over the place too. Last Sunday, while we were getting ready to go to Center Parcs the following day, I went to the supermarket to buy some of the things we were going to take away with us for self catering. My timing was awful. I was in the supermarket for the 11am Remembrance Sunday two minute silence. (Usually we go to to a service, the only reason we didn’t this year was trying to get everything packed and ready for our holiday). Anyway, they announced over the tannoy that they were going to be doing the silences in ten minutes, and then proceeded to start playing really emotional songs like Mariah Carey “There’s a hero/if you look inside your soul….” Oh my god. By the time the fanfare came on for the silence I already knew. I was going to be a hormonal wreck. I tried to find a quiet aisle (settled on the nappy aisle and tried to fix my gaze on them for the two minutes) and just stood there with the tears rolling down my face. It was just awful. I didn’t have a tissue or anything on me. After the two minutes were up, I tried really hard to pull myself together again but couldn’t really think straight so just threw a few more things in the trolley, paid, and got out of there!

As soon as I got in the car, I called Tony and started sobbing… he must’ve wondered what the hell had happened!

I had a similar hormonal outburst about this stage in pregnancy last time – again in the supermarket! I was doing the shopping and Tony was washing my car. When I finished I got into the car park and couldn’t find Tony. I tried to ring him and couldn’t get an answer. I got really upset and panicky. I wheeled the trolley round the car park a few times, like a mad woman, all bleary eyed. I thought Tony had abandoned me and I was really cross and upset. What had actually happened was there was a queue to wash the cars, and he was still washing mine, with the phone inside it. Eventually I spotted him at the car wash, wheeled the trolley over and pretty much pushed the trolley into the car, shouting “where have you been?!?! I thought you’d gone without me!!!”

At that point in the last pregnancy, I vowed never to step in a supermarket ever again. Internet shopping all the way.

I think the same course of action would be wise this time round, too!

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The queasiness and inability to face the thought of many foods has really got a lot worse over the last few days. This is worse than I remember it with Lilly – although I suppose last time I didn’t have a lively little toddler to look after and I got more sleep and could take things slower I suppose!

Yesterday it reached a peak. Luckily, it was a Sunday and Tony was here because I was just feeling shattered and so queasy. Everytime I ate, it made me feel worse. Eventually, when Lilly went to bed at 6pm (she hadn’t had her usual nap, because the noise of the wind outside scared her, so she went to bed a little earlier) I went to bed too, and slept for a couple of hours. Bliss. I felt much better when I woke up, but still a bit icky.

For the last few days I’ve also felt ill at the thought of tea and coffee – something which never happened last time. I know it must be so obvious in work when I’m turning down teas and coffees – usually I’m a caffeine monster – but I don’t really care if people work out what the reason might be – the thought of a cup of coffee makes me feel really sick!

Today I’m feeling a bit better though, so I’m hoping i’ve turned a corner. I even had a sip of tea this afternoon, without ill effect! I’ve got a constant nausea underneath everything, but at lunchtime I managed to go out and find a sandwich that I actually liked the look of and fancied to eat, and managed to eat it without feeling queasy or bloated. So that was a small victory!

I think the morning sickness has actually helped make things seem a bit more real. I probably do believe I’m pregnant now (finally!!) so it has had some useful effect.

We might not have the early scan now (i’m a ditherer, i know…) as we are on holiday in Center Parcs next week and then i’ll be nearly nine weeks by the time we’re back, so not all that long to wait until the 12 week scan which is on December 2. So we’re trying to be a bit patient and resist temptation!

Oh, and my personal prediction about this baby – a boy! Based on a strong hunch I had on the day of ovulation and still have today. Only time will tell!

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Well, I’ve reached six weeks pregnant today and had my first appointment with a midwife.

This appointment was the booking in appointment with the midwife who visits my local GPs. It is a little bit complicated because the midwives who visit my local GPs serve Wigan hospital, not Warrington, where I am having my baby. So, basically, the midwife I see at my GP can’t really tell me anything specific about what really will happen – because procedures are different at the two hospitals. My actual booking-in appointment will take place at Warrington – more of that later.

Up here, we don’t necessarily see the same midwife each time, it’s just pot luck who you get. Today’s midwife was one who I saw while pregnant and in the weeks after having Lilly. She’s a bit brash, but I like her, she’s quite to-the-point and down to earth.

She wrote out a few notes and gave me some leaflets. Then she asked me about my last pregnancy. I told her – very straightforward, uncomplicated pregnancy and a birth that was anything but. 10 days overdue, over enthusiastic intervention by consultant, failed epidural, emergency c-section under general anaesthetic. I said I was keen to avoid that scenario again if at all possible!

Most of what she told me I already knew. That they’ll go back over my birth notes and see what the reasons for the c-section were, and if it was a straight forward failure to progress (rather than breech or other complication that is likely to recur) then they’ll be ok for me to go for a VBAC – vaginal birth after caesarian. That’s what I really want.

She asked me how far i’d manage to progress last time. I guessed about 5cm. She said this time I’d probably get to 5cm quite quickly, then after that it’d slow down and I’d labour like a first timer, which I knew.

She also said that the consultants would probably be a bit reluctant to induce me if I went over 14 days (which is the maximum time they’ll let you go overdue before an induction at Warrington, at Wigan it is 10 days apparently). This is because the induction process puts more intense pressure on the scar on your uterus. She said if it came to induction they might agree to a “half hearted” induction – one pessary to see if it worked on its own, otherwise they’d advise a section.

It’s a subject I need to do plenty or research on, and if anyone out there can tell me where I begin, that’d be brilliant!

I also asked the midwife today about some of the other things that i’ve been thinking about. One was will I do any harm to the baby by lifting and carrying Lilly, who weighs nearly 2 stone! She said it was just like exercise – if you’re a regular jogger before you got pregnant, you can usually just carry on. So that’s reassured me a bit. Besides, a friend of mine has just had a second baby (her first is a little younger than Lilly) and her partner was away in the Navy for most of her pregnancy, and she survived.

The other thing I asked her about was the swine flu jab. It gets rolled out to pregnant women next week and the Government are very keen to stress that pregnant women should have it. I’ve really already made up my mind about it – I want to have it - and I was only really wanting to ask her whether I had to book an appointment, or they’ll write to me. However, she thought I was asking her opinion and launched into a big rant about how she isn’t going to have it, it hasn’t been researched enough and she doesn’t care what management say! Something she did say though, which I suppose makes sense, is that by 12 weeks the baby is fully developed, and it might be best to wait until then. I checked with the receptionist on the way out and she said the jab is only being offered to pregnant women who are at least 13 weeks pregnant (so in second trimester) anyway.

So, there we have it, first midwife appointment. My next one is not until November 16, which is at Warrington. My 12 week scan is booked for 2 December, which can’t come soon enough. I’ve looked at the cost of private scans, and at Take A Peek in St Helens, where we had our 3d scan with Lilly, you can have a reassurance scan for £65. I think we’ll try and hold out though, it seems silly to pay for something which we’re going to get anyway a few weeks later. But we’ll see.

On another note – I am already showing!!! To me, it looks pretty obvious. If nobody has guessed at work yet, I’ll be insulted! Not sure how I can keep it under wraps til 12 weeks…. last time I kept it secret until five and half months!

And symptoms wise, I’m still the same. Nothing much to report. I get really tired around 2pm at work and just can’t find the energy or motivation to do anything. I think this might be a combination of pregnancy and caffeine withdrawral!

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Well, it’s been four days since we found out I am pregnant again with number 2 and we’re still taking it all in!

As neither of us can hold in news like this for very long we have already told immediate family. Our theory being that, even if things went wrong, we’d still want those people to know so they would be there for us. Work, friends and the wider family can wait until the 12 week scan though! We invited Tony’s mum, dad and sister round to our house for a few drinks on the day we did the positive test. They all seemed quite surprised but really thrilled. They have really loved having a granddaughter / niece and have been so great in their new found roles over the past two years, so think they’re happy to be doing it all again!

I still have little in the way of symptoms to report – I have noticed an increase in hunger, and am a little more tired. The last few days i’ve felt a bit cloudy like a hangover (although I can assure you i haven’t been drinking!) although we have managed fairly late nights and disturbed sleep as Lilly has a bad cold (so do I) and keeps waking all night. I’ve also been quite thirsty – even though i’m drinking soft drinks all night i’m still waking up in the night parched. I’ve also been quite a cold bones lately – I know we are getting towards winter, but usually i’m always hot. And I’m probably needing to wee a little bit more often!

Yesterday T and I went to my cousin’s wedding in Scotland. Lilly stayed with her Nanna and Grandad, so we drove up early on Sat morning and came back today. We stayed out until gone midnight! It was 1am by the time we finally fell into bed, exhausted! That’s where we told my mum, and later that evening, my sister. Both were really happy about the news, (although my sis proceeded to get so drunk i’m not sure if she will actually remember it today!!).

One thing we didn’t prepare ourselves for was people asking us the “when are you going to have another one then?” question. Both times we were asked we stammered and made lame jokes… it must’ve been pretty obvious! But hey, never mind…

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Well, I did test as planned this morning and… POSITIVE!

I got up at the shocking hour of 4.30am (about an hour ago) to do the test with T before he left for work ‘just in case’ it was good news.

At first, on the test window of the stick it looked like a line straight away, but when I compared it to the box i realised the line was across the window, not down like it should have been so I thought that was it.

But then, as I stared at it, willing a line to appear, the faintest hint of a vertical line started to appear like magic… ohmygoodness!

I left it a minute or so until I could be sure I wasn’t imagining things… then took it through to T, who was still in the shower, with a big smile on my face. He said “that’s a definite line!” and then gave me a very wet hug and kiss! We went downstairs and had a celebratory cuppa before he went off to work, now I’m sitting in bed with my laptop taking it all in.

According to the wonderful www.fertilityfriend.com my due date (going from ovulation) is 17 June 2010, a few week’s after T’s 30th birthday and just before our 6th wedding anniversary.

I’ve got no symptoms to report really, just the ones that lead me to think we might have been lucky earlier on in my cycle. Somehow, the day after ovulation, I just felt pregnant. I was bloated and a bit crampy and I just had a feeling. I also had a vision of a baby boy – so we’ll have to wait and see whether that comes true or not!

Aside from that, i’ve had days when i’ve been particularly hungry, and I had a really lightheaded and dizzy spell on CD20, which was 4dpo. Last time with Lilly, I remember having really sore boobs by this stage, but that hasn’t happened this time… at best there is sometimes a dull ache which is almost inperceptible… I haven’t been able to decide whether I was largely imagining things at times.

I suppose the pink tinged cm on CD 27 – 11 dpo – must have been implantation. I had hoped that might be the case, but by yesterday I was just so nervous about doing the test!

So there we are, doing it all again. Wow.

Right, better get up and have my shower before my darling little Lil wakes up. She is going to make a lovely big sister!

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