Seven weeks four days – feeling bleuurrrghhhh!

The queasiness and inability to face the thought of many foods has really got a lot worse over the last few days. This is worse than I remember it with Lilly – although I suppose last time I didn’t have a lively little toddler to look after and I got more sleep and could take things slower I suppose!

Yesterday it reached a peak. Luckily, it was a Sunday and Tony was here because I was just feeling shattered and so queasy. Everytime I ate, it made me feel worse. Eventually, when Lilly went to bed at 6pm (she hadn’t had her usual nap, because the noise of the wind outside scared her, so she went to bed a little earlier) I went to bed too, and slept for a couple of hours. Bliss. I felt much better when I woke up, but still a bit icky.

For the last few days I’ve also felt ill at the thought of tea and coffee – something which never happened last time. I know it must be so obvious in work when I’m turning down teas and coffees – usually I’m a caffeine monster – but I don’t really care if people work out what the reason might be – the thought of a cup of coffee makes me feel really sick!

Today I’m feeling a bit better though, so I’m hoping i’ve turned a corner. I even had a sip of tea this afternoon, without ill effect! I’ve got a constant nausea underneath everything, but at lunchtime I managed to go out and find a sandwich that I actually liked the look of and fancied to eat, and managed to eat it without feeling queasy or bloated. So that was a small victory!

I think the morning sickness has actually helped make things seem a bit more real. I probably do believe I’m pregnant now (finally!!) so it has had some useful effect.

We might not have the early scan now (i’m a ditherer, i know…) as we are on holiday in Center Parcs next week and then i’ll be nearly nine weeks by the time we’re back, so not all that long to wait until the 12 week scan which is on December 2. So we’re trying to be a bit patient and resist temptation!

Oh, and my personal prediction about this baby – a boy! Based on a strong hunch I had on the day of ovulation and still have today. Only time will tell!

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Seven weeks pregnant

Well, here we are – seven weeks.

Last time I got to this stage I felt like it was a really significant milestone – seven weeks pregnant – it felt like loads!

This time it doesn’t feel like that – I still feel like it’s really early days. 12 weeks seems miles away. I think this time I feel a lot more anxious about things, I feel more worried about the things which can go wrong – don’t know why that is but I do. I think maybe I have the pregnancy books that bit earlier and looking at the pictures in The Pregnancy Bible (which I think is a great book, by the way) contributes a bit – the baby at this stage is just so tiny and only just starting to look recognisable as a human being – it’s less than an inch long!

Last time I was pregnant I never for one minute doubted that I would have a baby, from the second I saw the line on the pregnancy test. The whole pregnancy was just excitement and anticipation and impatience. This time, even though I now know what its like to have a successful pregnancy and what it is to have a baby and look after one, it all feels even more unreal and like somehow it won’t really happen. I can’t actually believe or imagine me this time next year, with a toddler of nearly three and a baby of four months. It seems like a mad dream, totally hypothetical!

And yet, hopefully, that is exactly what is going to happen!!

T and I have talked about going for an early scan, which I think might be able to kick-start my excitement and unswerving belief that we really are doing all this again. The place where we had our 3d scan with Lilly, Take A Peek in St Helens, does a reassurance scan for £65. So we may go before or after our trip to Center Parcs, which is in a week and a half. Or, we may be brave and hold out until 12 weeks.

Symptoms wise I’ve been feeling similar to how I felt at this stage with Lilly. All morning I feel slightly queasy and need to constantly eat to keep that feeling at bay. The problem is, I’m fussy with what I can and can’t face the thought of eating. And when I do eat, I feel so full!

Today for lunch I had some pea and ham soup and a bread roll. I couldn’t eat it all because I started to feel like I’d eaten six Christmas dinners. I’ve felt hugely bloated all day – like my tummy is ready to pop!!

I think my rate of tummy expansion has slowed down a little – thank goodness - so maybe I will make it to 12 weeks without it being massively obvious to everyone!

Oh, and I had my first pregnancy related dream last night. I dreamt I was 10 days overdue and I’d only just realised! And I was really annoyed because I hadn’t started on the raspberry leaf tea yet!

 

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Ohmygosh!

Well, I did test as planned this morning and… POSITIVE!

I got up at the shocking hour of 4.30am (about an hour ago) to do the test with T before he left for work ‘just in case’ it was good news.

At first, on the test window of the stick it looked like a line straight away, but when I compared it to the box i realised the line was across the window, not down like it should have been so I thought that was it.

But then, as I stared at it, willing a line to appear, the faintest hint of a vertical line started to appear like magic… ohmygoodness!

I left it a minute or so until I could be sure I wasn’t imagining things… then took it through to T, who was still in the shower, with a big smile on my face. He said “that’s a definite line!” and then gave me a very wet hug and kiss! We went downstairs and had a celebratory cuppa before he went off to work, now I’m sitting in bed with my laptop taking it all in.

According to the wonderful www.fertilityfriend.com my due date (going from ovulation) is 17 June 2010, a few week’s after T’s 30th birthday and just before our 6th wedding anniversary.

I’ve got no symptoms to report really, just the ones that lead me to think we might have been lucky earlier on in my cycle. Somehow, the day after ovulation, I just felt pregnant. I was bloated and a bit crampy and I just had a feeling. I also had a vision of a baby boy – so we’ll have to wait and see whether that comes true or not!

Aside from that, i’ve had days when i’ve been particularly hungry, and I had a really lightheaded and dizzy spell on CD20, which was 4dpo. Last time with Lilly, I remember having really sore boobs by this stage, but that hasn’t happened this time… at best there is sometimes a dull ache which is almost inperceptible… I haven’t been able to decide whether I was largely imagining things at times.

I suppose the pink tinged cm on CD 27 – 11 dpo – must have been implantation. I had hoped that might be the case, but by yesterday I was just so nervous about doing the test!

So there we are, doing it all again. Wow.

Right, better get up and have my shower before my darling little Lil wakes up. She is going to make a lovely big sister!

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14 weeks four days

Well, 14 weeks gone… that’s more than three and a half months pregnant! I suppose it feels like it has gone pretty quickly. Here’s how our darling bubs looks now…

I’m just about starting to feel pregnant too. I still don’t have any illness or anything like that but i can feel my stomach being bigger and a bit more awkward!

In a way my appetite seems smaller. Especially in the evenings, i get full quite quickly and then spend the evening feeling massively full! My nails have grown for the first time in years, i’ve stopped biting them and they’re actually quite strong. Usually if i manage to stop biting them for a bit they are always quite weak and ‘bendy’. I suppose i’m fairly tired too, although i’m not falling asleep on the sofa as i did in me anaemic days.

Talking of which, we had a letter through from the genetician that I went to see last July. At the time they went through my family history with me and my mum and thought that a genetic condition called HNPCC might be responsible for me getting bowel cancer so young. It seems that after almost a year of looking they haven’t found any abnormalities in the genes associated with HNPCC, and are now planning to look at the DNA on the tumour which they removed from me at the time. This could be brilliant news, as if i don’t have HNPCC it means i’m not going to pass it on to my babies. It also means my mum, sister and other relatives won’t have it either. The problem with HNPCC (well, there isn’t an awful lot good with it, if you know what I mean!) is that it makes you vulnerable to bowel and ovarian cancers. I was worried that if i had this condition, it meant that my window of opportunity to have babies was limited… i could contract that when i’m 30, and the answer would be a histerectomy. If i don’t have this, i’m only as likely to get it as the next person, which is good enough for me!

Anyway, back to being pregnant! We went to Babies R Us on Saturday and had a look at their cots and prams etc. I am absolutely in love with their Le Petit Chien range which is blue with little doggies on it! There is even a cot mobile that plays How Much Is That Doggie In The Window! It is so sweet!! But we’ll have to wait until the 20 week scan to find out if it is a boy or a girl!

Well, best go as i’m supposed to be leaving for work soon. Only six months to go!

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